Companionship …

… or in my case extreme lack of companionship. I’m a woman of a certain age so I don’t use the term “boyfriend”, it sounds juvenile/weird/creepy to me. I also do not expect someone to be all up my ass 24/7 because I understand that we all have lives. I don’t get jealous because I figure I cannot make a person like/love me and I cannot make a person stay. No one can take anyone away from me unless they want to be taken. I’m pretty easy going the only thing that I ask is that you act like I am alive, pay attention to me just a little bit, take me out and lets have fun. I also ask that you take care of yourself mentally and physically. I have been seening a great guy for couple of years but a series of unfortunate events in his life seems to have seriously altered our relationship. It just isn’t the same.

I hate hate hate starting a conversation with :

“We need to talk.”

But …

Shit, sonofabitch.

I am barely seeing him these days. It started off nice but slowly it started to become one sided. Now I truely believe I will see this person only if I go to their house.

We never just go anywhere anymore and I barely speak with him. I just don’t get the vibe that he is interested in being in a relationship anymore or even think I am worth the effort.

Things seem to have run its course with this one.


Guess I should get the “talk” thing done. I have never been good at breaking up and I am still not sure. But at this point in my life, if it makes me feel bad then it doesn’t serve me anymore. I feel lonely and that makes me feel bad.

Damn it to Hell!

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