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So yesterday I stuck to the low carb plan. I didn’t drink…I exercised. I can definitely see the difference when exercising without any alcohol in your system. I did Taebo Get Ripped Advanced 2. Yes…I went for an older straight cardio Taebo to kick start my fitness. IT FELT GOOD! Goodness…I have been slacking big time. The alcohol…the bad foods…I really hate the way I have been feeling lately. I took a couple of face shots of me yesterday on my camera phone. BLOATED! Wow…it isn’t worth drinking if you look like you have living on a diet of salt…all day every day. So…I’m back. I haven’t been on the scale…I’m scared to see where I am. I know my clothes fit terrible and I look and feel terrible. The last time I weighed myself I was 168.2. NOT COOL! Definitely not cool when you have a closet full of 5’s and them all have the muffin top look and you feel like they are strangling you. Talk about a pain the chest and cant breathe feeling! It is just not a good look…and I don’t have the money to buy a new wardrobe.
I have been fighting a chest cold for the past three weeks. I KNOW it isn’t just a chest cold. I probably have bronchitis. I have been smoking like a train these past 4 months. At least a pack a day. So yesterday I was in line about to buy another 4 packs of cigarettes that would probably last me 4 days…I started having a coughing fit. IT HURT. I felt weak and it felt like someone slammed me in the chest with a sledgehammer. The next thing I thought about was my Grandfather…HE SMOKED continuously. Yes…he died at the age of 92…but of lung cancer not old age. I also thought of my mother…as a child I couldn’t think of a time when my mother didn’t have a cigarette in her mouth. I used to think that smell was a normal smell. Well…she has COPD (Emphysema) and has breathing treatments…constant bronchitis…and at one point she needed oxygen to do simple tasks like going shopping. I want to do TAEBO?? So…I leave the line while the cashier is looking at me like I’m a nut…getting ready to ring up the 4 packs of Newport Kings in a box. I located the patch and spent the money on that instead of the smokes. I know I will save lots of money just by quitting…The cigarettes here cost 8 dollars a pack. 32.00 twice a week… 64.00 a week…256.00 a month. So I will take whatever is remaining from buying the patch and put in the savings. I’m curious to see how much I save.
Wow…I’m doing lots of life altering things this month. Im stopping the drinking because it has gotten out of control. I think that has a lot to do with the fact that my husband is in Florida…I’m a single Mother to a rebellious teenager (The Girl) who is trying to make my hair white before its time…and I’m lonely. I’m bored…I don’t do bars by myself so I convinced myself that it was a GREAT idea to drink in my house. Too many morning waking up feeling fuzzy…too many evenings where instead of exercising I smoked…drank…and of course snacked on Kettle potato chips. I wonder why I gained weight? I am stopping the smoking…hopefully not too late…just so I can avoid the oxygen tank that I know will be in my near future. The low carbing?? Well I decided to give up the sugar and carbs for Lent. I am using lent to help me get back on track because I honestly look younger and feel better eating that way. I also need to get back into my wardrobe. I’m tired of looking like I’m wearing a uniform every day. 🙂 I’m emailing this post..so ignore the UNCLASSIFIED stuff. I find that blogging again is helping me clear the fog in my head. The headache should go away shortly…
Later!
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